Realisation

Finally beginning to realise just how much this one means to Master. It is of a love much deeper than she can ever imagine, ever dream about, but one of much felt warmth and happiness like nothing she has ever felt before in her life. Just when she thinks that love can not get any deeper, something happens to make her think otherwise. She is excited to know of her own new found feelings and pray that they shall continue to grow ever deeper and ever stronger. Her love for her Master has no measure and shall ever will flow on and on.
She knows she will have to end her relationship with her husband, yet she also has a lot of love and feelings for him still. Even after all he has done and all that he lacks, this one's love is strong, though not as strong as her love for her Master.
How can one love two people as much as she does, surely this cannot be possible. Still, she finds herself in the middle of a very difficult decision as she wishes not to hurt anyone, but knows she will hurt one, being her husband. Lord, please help her find the right time to sort out this mess she finds herself in.
Day by day the bond between Master and slave are becoming ever stronger and deeper, to a point that this one feels it shall be hard to break if not impossible to do such. She finds herself craving for His touch, His love, His voice, His commands, His presence, His silenc. Everything He is she craves to serve Him, in all ways, both what she knows and what she is yet to learn.
She craves to learn more and more, she is eager to gain knowledge in everything she is able to.
It has been surprising how much this one has learned about herself, not only in a day to day way of life but also in a sexual capacity.
She could only dream about her deepest darkest thoughts and desires in the past, but now she feels so free as she is allowed and is expected to shared all with her Master. It also surprises this one that her Master is as deep and dark as she is, if not deeper and darker. She craves to learn more about the dark as well as the light. Just wish it would slow down a little.
She has noticed that in a way things have slowed down ever so slowy after the past couple of days, though she thinks it is because of what she has been going through and Master has been wanting to just be here for her and pushing her too much. With the things getting lighter, she feels that the time will come when her Master will begin pushing again in a sexual way, which she is scared about. Scared about finding out just how dark this one can crave and desire, though also excited and eager all at the same time.
Watching Masters videos as He sleeps are really turning her on in a mighty way though unable to do anything about it as she is not alone (dammit). The parts with dogs and horses, the anime...mmmms...she is so so wet as she imagines herself in the place of the females involved. She craves to taste and receive all kinds of cock...be it Human or animal, big or small, fat or thin, she just desires to be a cock sucking whore she knows she is deep inside. She also desires to love pussy even more, as well as to find out what it is like for a female to use and abuse this one. Sound like this one is a freak? Who cares? This one used to care what others think, but to a point, she no longer thinks like that, except family. They do not and shall not know about this ones way of living as they would not understand or listen to understand.