Step By Step

After taking a much needed walk, this one's mind is now a little clearer about who and what she is, and is to come. She has a lot of learning to do, which she is finding a little hard in some areas. It is difficult to remember that it is not just the sexual aspects which her Master desires from her, but the whole package. She feels that once the training in this area has been developed more, she shall see new topics being added, the light as well as the dark.
The light she is yet to see in its fullest, but she knows that everyone has to begin somewhere. If she can cope with the dark side of the Master/slave relationship, then she knows she will be able to find dealing with the light, a breeze.
Focus and confidence are two main things which she is having a problem with, though she feels they shall become easier as time goes by. She truly hopes that her Master can be as patient as she feels He can be, as this one knows that there will be many times that the walls will spring back up, perhaps even without her realising such. She is thinking that she needs to deal with these two topics first and foremost, before these walls can be knocked down and cleared, once and for all. Maybe she knows not how to begin such difficult tasks, as she sees them, but she does know that, at the right time, she will overcome such barriers she has had for so many years. With the focus and confidence, which will be built, she knows more of the dark as well as the light shall be easier to accomplish.