Something To Believe In.

After talking to her Master about a few things yesterday, this one is feeling in a better mind frame as well as feeling much more in love with Him.
It is still early days and there is a lot more yet to find out about one another. This one is very excited to be traveling along this chosen path with such a loving, caring and understanding Master such as He.
He makes her laugh in the small funny things He says. He makes her think upon many deep, dark and wonderful things, as well as ponder upon her everyday life, to which she needs to remember it is not her own life anymore, but it belongs to her One true Master. She needs to understand that when she is hurting, He hurts also, when she is happy so is He. She knows she needs to open up more to Him, to share all that she is and shall be with Him. Though finding it difficult to do such, she is finding it easier each day as we continue to communicate more to one another.
She just wishes that the sexual side would be a little less for conversation as, even though she knows now it is not how she was thinking it was, it is still hard, at times, to understand that it is not just the sexual He learns from asking such questions.
She must learn to confide and trust in Him more, though she knows that as we both spend time together, the more respect and trust shall be earned from both sides. Her love for Him grows at a rapid pace, so much so it scares this lil one to death at times, which is when she feels like running and hiding away from not just Him but from everyone around her.
She has no privacy where she resides at this moment, so she is finding things much harder to deal with. Even the most *innocent* of conversations seem hard as there are people around her who look over her shoulders and sometimes she is not quick enough to minimise things which she wishes no one else to see. It is also difficult as no one knows of her chosen way of living, as she knows they would not understand, or listen to the reasons why. They would judge her on her every move even more so than they do now.
She longs to be with her true Master, her heart craves to be with Him to serve and love Him even more, beyond her wildest and not so wildest dreams. Being a part of a Gorean household will not be easy at times, though as along as she sticks with it, continues to love, honour, obey and serve her Master in all things, she will grow much more stronger and more beautiful than even she can dream of.
Her heart, mind and body belongs to her Master, which makes her feel excited yet nervous of the unknown. She feels, though it may not be as easy as One thinks, He may even have her soul, in time.
Master has given this one a new beginning, a new life, something to believe in after many years of not really knowing who or what she was or where she was going.
Everywhere she searched, even though she has been happy she always felt there was something missing. With her Master she knows there shall be nothing missing and we shall be complete, as a couple in the Master/slave life as well as individually as a person.
Her mind is becoming more open as it has ever been. Her body shivers and gets excited every time she is with her Master. Her feelings and thoughts become more and more deeper and she knows she is more in love with Him then she is with her own husband.

















To be at Your feet is where she craves to be,
Serving You in all things naturally,
To bring out the very best in You,
Her service ever stronger and ever true.

Her deepest dreams becoming reality,
Living the life she is meant to be,
A new beginning, a brand new start,
Now and eternity, we shall never part.

Master You are real to me,
In all she feels, thinks and sees,
Belonging to You, forevermore,
Her obedience to You is ever sure.

Times they are a-changing,
Her life You're rearranging,
In thought and deed, in heart and soul,
To grow more beautiful and reach the goal.

She loves You Master, it's plain to see,
Forever Yours she shall be.

Always in service to You.

Yours forever

Tora

(poem dedicated to her Master - Last Samurai)