All Things Are Possible, For Those Who Believe

It has been a day filled with many things, one hopes she can remember everything she did and felt...should be interesting....here goes.

As always I spent a great time with Master, from the time I awoke until He went to bed over four hours ago. It was great to have some time to ourselves, which is very rare, considering where I live is usually filled with people at any given time. With everyone out of the way, Master and I were able to have a deep session, which filled me with more emotions than I ever thought imaginable. It has continued to make me feel loved and secure, but also made me think about my slavery to Master. Until our recent session, I admit I did not truly know in my heart just how much I felt about Master. Yes, I love Him, in fact I am in love with Him. I am realising that the more I learn about Him and His ways, the more I am falling in love wth Him on a daily basis. I never want this feeling I have to ever fade or disappear, but to continue to grow ever onward and upward. It has not been until recently that I have been truly listening to Him, in fact it has only been since He made me realise that for over twenty years, I have been running from myself, my innerself, which is rather stupid when one stops to think about it. Since then, I have been wanting to learn and know more about Master, as well as what lies deep within myself, things I know is there, though not knowing exactly what they are. This frightens me, as I feel I should know everything about myself. Ig I don't know me, how can I expect anyone else to, but this philosophy is thrown out of the window, as I learn about Master and His ways of teaching, as I know He really does know more about me than I know of myself. I have found myself eating my words as I listen to Master with more understanding and eagerness and I really hate eating humble pie....lol.
I know I belong to Master 100% yes I have a rebellious side which slips out more times than I wish, but it is who I am, is it not? I am sure Master may disagree with me there...lol. I know I am Masters slut, in all things, but I also now wish to know if I am or could ever be His confidant, His lady, His companion. I guess only Master can show and/or tell me the answer to these things. I may not know straight away, or when I would wish to know, but I sincerely pray that Master will be able to open up more to me, as I open up more to Him.
I did not know what to do or say earlier, as Master surprised me in a very big way, when He gave me His heart. Wow, such an honour, something which I pray that I can love, honour and obey Him more and more, as I take care of His needs, His wants, His desires, and make His dreams come true.
After Master went to bed, I decided to close the computer and send some time in my own mind, with my own thoughts and feelings, which are now are on this page before me. I washed my hair and took time in having a long, soak in the bath. Whilst in the bath and after I had finished bathing, and doing my bits and pieces, I lay in the warm water, closed my eyes and imagined myself in my secret place, where no one else can go to, not even Master. While there, I realised that I really am changing. Yes there may be an issue or two to still be sorted out, but I know they shall be done so, when the time is right. All I have to do is listen, learn and obey. I then found myself caressing my own body in a way I have never done before in my life. My hands traveled over my breasts in a seductive manner, travelling upon my stomach and down to my pussy, caressing and taking care of every inch of flesh, and I have many inches....lol. I felt different about myself, I would even go to say that for the first time I felt like I was loving myself. Not meaning in a sexual nature par se, but literally loving myself, loving in love with myself, it felt strange but very very good. I felt better about myself and was able to look in the mirror in a different light. For this, I really do thank Master, His teaching and guidance, even when I have no clue why He does some things and He may not say why, whch is frustrating. I am learning, or should I say relearning how love not only another, but also myself. I am not only trusting another, but for the first time in years, I am beginning to trust/believe in myself. Now I know where I belong in this world and more importantly to Whom I belong to, I crave to learn more, I long to succeed in all things both none sexual and sexual. I wish to learn all I am able to and I know with Master, my Master, ALL things are possible, as long as I put my trust in Him.

ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE, FOR THOSE WHO BELIEVE.



Hold me close, let Your love surround me,
Bring me near, draw me to Your side,
As i rise, i'll soar up like an eagle,
And i will soar with You,Your spirit leads me on,
In the power of Your love.