Venting and Observations

If Master thinks i am going to go all black, He has another thing coming.Is He not pleased or happy enough as to what i have already become? sheesh, just cannot please Him these days. As soon as i submit to another thing, He is on about something or someone else, well He can quit it because i will just go back in my shell if not careful. i wish he would give me time to digest the past few months, as i have not had chance to reflect on who i was and who i am now, for God sake slow down, i need time to breathe, sheesh. There are other things for me to learn, i dont and wont learn every small sexual thing all at the same time. About time i was introduced to something away from the sexual stuff, just like Master began to the other night,and stillnot shared everything with me about His past now. Now,i may be wrong, but i feel He has hit a place where he has a problem, or causes Him pain, as He has not volunteered any other information. In time i hope He will be able to trust me with the rest of His past, just as He does His sexual appetite. i have also noticed that He has admitted he has done wrong in His past, but has seemed to glide over it, He does not go into as much detail, like he does when talking about something good He has done. i wonder why. So what is He hiding, what pain is He feeling?